| i'm sad...i lost something that i don't know if i'll ever find again. i'm sure i will eventually find somthing like it again...maybe one that is better than what i lost...but i probably won't be able to get back exactly what i lost back. it kinda sucks...and without it i feel a little lost and unprotected. some of my fantasys for my uncoming future have been shattered by just a few words. i guess i get over it...but ummm...what if i don't? it'll probably take a while but i have to be happy and that requires moving on without what i have lost...i have done it before almost regretfully. i sometimes would like to visit my memories again...i can see them in my mind and almost feel the elements that were of then in the present. the wind blowing my hair, crunching of rocks and dirt, birds tweeting their tunes...i can imagine it all...but new memories are to always be made. and new things aren't bad but sometimes all i would like is what has already happened. i could live in a memory...heh...oh i could but none will ever because we all must keep going...strive for something better or to work to make that one memory last for ever happily while still progressing. there is no stopping....ever....a concept i haven't mastered and may never master. |
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| You know...it really isn't shocking that no one comments on what I write on xanga...I don't know that it should be either. Well...no one worries about something as trivial as writings or blogs unless they want to use something ones said against them. Why do we live in a world of hate? What is there to gain from hating? What good does it do to hate? And yet most people dislike and almost hate alot of their days on this Earth. I guess all i can say it that it really isn't worth it. |
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| so now that my birthday is over i have only one thing to look forward to...and that is my trip to hawaii. i'm excited...i'm going on a cruse so that'll be nice.
then i'll be going to utah. i'm just going to live and work out there. its something very spontanious...its more fun that way... |
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| well i'm 19...its the same but a little different.... : )
i'm going to do my hair in a mowhawk....so......rock on.... |
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| HOOORAY! 6 days! only 6 more days! |
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